7th heaven

hi mak,

i couldnt sleep... just showered, thats it. how have u been doing?

we just finished the 7th day tahlil for u. hope u got all our prayers. today the food was brought by uncle onn. i couldnt get the food cos it has to be collected during my working time, and furthermore, our car was sent for repairing. oh yeah... i believe u knew that me and nanu met an accident while rushing to the hospital on the day u left us. dont worry about the accident, nanu and i are safe. only some minor damage to the car.

ur mum (nanan) is sleeping over at your place tonight. the relatives whom stayed over throughout the week had gone home tonight.

nanu broke down again while on her way home in the cab. no mak.. i am the one who told her to take the cab. cos today is the 7th day remember? so must ask her to break fast at home cos there are other relatives there. and furthermore, she must be very tired from work. she forwarded me a lenghty sms which she sent to bak. u wanna know what she says? ok.. will summarize it here.

"i'm missing mak very very much. i still cant seem to grasp to the fact that she is really gone. i seem 2 think that i will still see her at home. waiting to spend some time with me. bak, i love her so much. i dont know how to go on. i didnt have the chance to look after her. i realli realli miss her. i walked pass raffles place just now hoping i willl see her walking around. i went to the train station hoping that i will see her rushing home to catch the mrt. i saw the shop she always buy the newspaper n it dawned on me that she will no longer be doing that cos she is gone"

look ma... nanu loves u and misses u very very much. can u give her strength ma. please seek help from above. ok ma? oh and here is what bak replied.

"we must accept the fact that she is no more with us & we must also accept the fact that her soul is always with us. we cant see her but i am sure that she can see us. so not must or got to do what she like. we do what she likes as a natural things.

not to worry about her love for you. she always love u whatever happened that i can assure you.

we must carry on live & am sure her soul be always with us. she always love us more than herself & i always love you. it is a very great different between my tongue & my heart - love u"

mak, i wore the jubah u bought for me when u were in mecca. i love it very much. and it really fits me perfectly.

im sure u are aware of ur daughter's anger with her cousins for those 'misbehaving' during this one week. she was angry because she loves u very much mak. cos she demands respect from everyone who came to pray for you. u know how your daughter wants everything to go well. those are the tiny signs which shows that she loves u very much.

just now, we both were clearing up the kitchen. i knew she was at the loss with what to do with some of the stuffs. i knew u will be there beside her giving her strength and guidance. i cant do anything much but just to be there for her. i have promised u before that i will take good care of her... and that promise will be here to stay. i will also need ur help mak. just give us strength to carry out our duties as a good child. as much as she loves u, i love u too mak. u know that u are extremely missed.

last thing, ur birthday this year falls on nuzul alquran. wow.. how great can that be. ur birthday falls on the birth of alquran. but u are not here to celebrate with us. be rest assured that we will pray for u all we can. and u do give us ur prayers too ok mak. its 3.20 am now mak. i got to go grab some rest. need to wake up by 4 and wake nanu up by 4.30 for sahur.

till then mak, assalamualaikum.