dah'd

the sombre mood and the face of jess dad is still fresh and vivid on my busy mind. i was smoking my last stick of marlboro reds when i start to wonder.... what if dad leaves us.

how would mom accept the fact? how about the love that spreads thru the hall of the house? how would ryan face it? how would it impact me....

i couldnt think any further. since young, i was tought by him to be close to the dead. with that, i'd always keep myself humble. i will always think that i will die one day, buried with them... waiting for judgement day. some people, they live their lives not thinking that they are gonna be old and withered.

if i were to loose dad, its like im loosing my religion.

take care mr sesaiyah. RIP.