el nanans

i is visit my nanan's (grandma in law) at marine parade last night. i is a happy man. soup curry... thats what i'd call it. probably its the northern indian cuisine. uncle beng, tickles me with his antiques. a good night after all. 

after a year of marriage, i still couldnt figure out why i can adapt so easily to mak's side. im natural. i am myself. whereas when im on the other side, i just simply couldnt make it. im not myself. im uncomfortable. at times where i try and persevere but yet, i cant feel shit.... somewhat similar when im with my own relatives. i cant adapt as much when im with my maternal side. when im with my paternal side... im the natural bitch. im myself. 

anyways, what's me to decide on this. if i feel good, i'll feel good. if i dont, then i wont. what am i talking about.....