sigh

im actually quite boring. bored with the fact that i have not achieved what i want in my life. but do i exactly know what i want? and what have i done to achieve it? well as of now, im taking things with quite a big leap.

when i joined the workforce, i wanted to earn at least 30k per annum before i turned 30. well based on my low qualification, i cant really expect that much. without papers, without that much experience, there's quite not much places you can venture. so how would i want to strike it rich? on honest opinion, its pretty tough for me. i've seen thru the ranks that one can only be rich with some gamble... with some risk. and thats either through stocks or business. boss aimed that i ought to be an engineer by 2007. and now, im only an AE. subjected for the next level this November... PROVIDED if things goes smooth. thats for work.

religiously, i still blow. knew that i will be sent down there beside bush, in the oven. yelling for help. knowing no one can help. the amount of sins on my left shoulder, my goodness. i think it has to be measured by tons. with more adding on... i need to work something out.

my target age of being a married man was between 28 - 35. I thought i would be when i turned 30. But i'm married when i'm 28.

academically, nothing to be proud about. financially too.

my lecturer from Ass Que Ai once said, "when you want to change, make sure you change the inside you. not the outside you". it kindda make me wonder a lot sometimes. what can i change myself into? a better person of course. so spot on! lets make the difference.... yeah rite.