QT

so whats happening. i had a terrble morning at footy. feeling all useless doesnt help me boost my morale. then came to bab's to pass her the puffs (inhalers.. what were u thinking?)

i am so desperate to spend QT with babs. but at the same time, not neglecting my understanding towards her responsibilities at home. so i have to be fair. when babs brought up about going JB, i was excited... for a while. I forgot that I have to send grandpa home tonight. sigh. busu asked if i could send him earlier. how i wish i could. but there are rules. stupid rules being set up by cik eddie, and endorsed by the rest of the ikan tongkols. but i wanna spend time with babs. i wanna be with her. hugging. caressing her hair. rubbing nose. peckings on the cheeks. i just wanna do it good to her. she has not been at the right state of mind. but i want to be there for her to re-stake the claim. she deserved to be heard. for all that ability to hit back when being provoked, she was weakened. losing out to a reason .... respect of elders.

my aunties did get puzzled with the fact that my wedding theme will be white & pink. yes. as much as they thought that it was sissy of me to have pink in my wedding theme, they will end up putting up praises for me. BUT... only after my explaination of why babs was unable to have her taste in our own wedding. with love, i insisted to have white & pink as my wedding theme. with love, i wouldnt want to know or care what others have in their thoughts. i only want it to come from one source. and that is OURS. Babs and myself. Period.